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"I want my chance back, can I?"

stupid, why did I miss my chance?

I was shock kay, once again.

can I have my chance back?

I know I will regret it later,

but I dun give a damn about it.

yesterday went to watch IPMAN2.

go JP eat dinner, western stuff.

I ate finish, I ask my mum if I can eat xiaolongbao.

she give me the "you still can eat ar" look.

but too bad, no time liao, need go movie.

so eat Popcorn lorhs.

the movie is damn nice kay.

but the angmor police damn kp lorhs -.-

Donnie Yen is like so damn shuai when he fight.

AHAHAHAHAH.

I finished my popcorn, all by myself!

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"I never wanna see you cry cry cry,

& I never wanna tell a lie lie lie."

listening to Beautiful by Colby O'Donis ft. Akon.

nice song.

the lyrics above, are my favourite in the song (:

it would be so nice if he told me,

but apparently, not.

he is the one who always trying to make me cry.

Bleah.

well, today not as funny as usual.

cos HouJoo never come, he sick. (Get well soon ^^)

then nobody argue with Medeline, no fighting.

so Leon very emo, Medeline also very emo.

so quiet >.<

lessons quite slack today anyway.

Music, left my bag outside classroom & ran up to music room -.-

cos Trex go lock the door >.<

the KaiJun's group put on a play(?)

no singing so they have to come up with lyrics in 4MINUTE.

& so they did on the Titanic song:

My Heart Will Go On (one of my favourite ♥)

Integrated Science, 18/25 AHAHAHAH! :D

Recess, as usual, ask Ethan buy Pocky up to class (:

History, forget liao, nothing much really xD

Chinese, write baozhangbaodao. All craps :X

Lunch, play Jianhui's phone, as usual :D

English, group with Medeline && Leon.

then do this:

Loving

Exceptional

Outstanding

Nice

then when I am writing, Leon go flicked my hair with his pen.

*shocked* look up and think "What's his problem?"

then he said he always do that to his sister.

well, if he flicked my hair somemore,

I might fall in love with him.

LOL, joking larhs. Jianhui will kill me,

Feiyue also xD

so nothing much.

Muhua's tablet kenna confiscated.

so is Medeline's phone.

Mathematics, Mr Liu never come. Nancy Bala let us slack.

then after school Minhan, Jianhui, Muhua, Medeline & me

went to 111 to stare at Mrs Chua to get back their stuff.

Muhua get his tablet.

Medeline get her phone.

& Minhan get her bottle of lollipop.

kay that's all in school.

go home halfway rain -.-

going watch movie later.

IPMAN2! ♥

heard that it is nice :D

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"Complicated feelings."

today, tuesday, slack day.

slack lessons, making me sleepy.

recess && lunch never go down, so hungry.

luckily, I get Ethan to smuggle snacks up :D

during Literature lessons, HouJoo was webcaming Zenyoung.

Zenyoung... did he cut his hair?

then HouJoo say I stupid because obviously his hair grow longer.

-.-

nothing much really.

all crappings all day long, blabbering nonsenses.

Oh, Muhua never came school today.

the class was quite peaceful. ^^

home sweet home (:

bath && lie on the sofa almost fell asleep.

no homework, at least I guess no.

so, slack whole day then on com.

crap...

why would I ever like you, damns.

&& I dun believe you, you always bluff me.

&& since you have changed so much,

I would be dumb to believe you.

But I did, I am dumb.

continue irritating me with your horny craps.

well, I will play along with you,

asking you to "fuck off, jerk."

&& for goodness' sake, stop stabbing me again & again.

You are a real jerk.

I seriously wanna beat you up.

but too bad for me.

I think I have lost my mind for I like you. -.-

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"A single word from you is all I need."

it's so boring so I shall post once again.

&& after I post finish, I shall go bath then probably do art.

as a lot of your have noticed, it is hot lately.

seriously, it's quite warm lately.

&& I am getting headache now.

I played too much com, now nothing to do.

I seriously love listening to some songs.

the lyrics are seriously damn freaking nice.

jus like the song I am listening to now.

You Make Me Wanna - Blue

I seriously love this song ♥

"You're the first and the last thing on my mind."

I love emo songs! ♥

today is Mother's Day?

Oh so I shall say this to my mummy, although I hate her.

&& she won't be able to see it anyways.

she dunnoes my blog, if not I will be dead.

kay here goes:

"Mummy, although I hate you.

Sometimes, you are seriously nice,

especially when you buy cup ice cream specially for me,

cos I dun like stick ice creams, &&

when you buy yoghurt, beancurb & a lot of food.

& thanks for a twin brother anyways,

it makes me real special. (:

so happy mother's day."

nobody at home now.

Mum went out with her friends, for buffet, again.

Dad not home yet.

Evil twin brother went for his friend birthday party.

the house is seriously peaceful ♥.

I wanna do this crazy stuff, that Chen Xinlong suggest.

this is what I wanna say to somebody in particular.

"You know, I like you, yet I dunnoes why.

there's a huge different between you & me.

I am smarter, of course. (:

sorry for disturbing you, cos I am piss off.

&& you have to somehow counsel me.

a lot of things that you said,

I have been told by my friend.

yet I dun really listen to them.

Why the heck I listen to you, damns.

Well, I shall not disturb you anymore.

get on with your life, yours is a lot better than mine."

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"You never fail to ruin my day."

today we visited the nursing home.

I heed his advice, stay happy && be myself.

I really enjoy it, cos I am happy today.

it jus feel so right, so normal, so good.

Gradually, my day is ruined.

I dun even have the mood to post about it now.

or even the trip to nursing home.

btw, Leon dances well, get on with it.

urgh, my mood totally sucks now to the core.

what wrong did I make.

I tried my very best not to make any mistake,

or even take a single wrong move.

where on hell did I get on your nerve.

you dun like me, fine, I get lost.

what more do you want!?

something nice. HIM.

he, is seriously damn nice.

I like him ♥ && I dunnoes why.

I think I am crazy but that is not my fault.

all these stupid craps jus cant stop bothering me.

I did this crazy thing.

Why? I didn't know.

But after blabbering out everything, I felt better.

he, is obviously like the nicest person ever to me.

well, maybe because my life sucks, that's why.

but he is nice.

HE IS NICE ttm! ♥, I am mad.

one problem solved, surprisingly out of impulsiveness.

another problem came.

seriously stressful.

maybe will study for chemistry later.

but I am not clear-headed now, I can't think.

Mathematics, well, simply easy.

think I will jus go cry && fell asleep later.

gosh, I seriously shouldn't post about her now.

it makes me wanna cry.

I am seriously stressed.

sorry if I go mad, but everything I confessed, it's true.

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"leave me alone and stfu."

mood not good, so I shall blog.

before you read on, sorry for any vulgarities.

I can't help it. I shall try to minimize the usage of vulgar.

well, I didn't wanna post a lot of things.

if you dun understand what I talking, good for you :D

if you understand, keep it to yourself will do.

I hate you.

I know my life is damn screwed.

&& I dun need anyone to care.

&& I have nobody with me. (CHENXINLONG get it clear)

&& I hate my life.

fml, it sucks.

for the past 13 years, nothing seems to be right.

yeah right, I am emo.

whatever crap it is, I dun give a damn.

dun try to cheer me up, cos you will never succeed.

unless you are him,

urgh, what am I thinking, it will never happen.

I miss him so much.

fcuk, I should forget him right.

yeah, I should.

oh, maybe, jus maybe, let everything happen by itself.

everything naturally.

gosh, I am talking to myself.

well, if not what, I have nobody to talk to, get it.

and fcukyou stupid XL, stop pissing me off.

you better not tag rubbish at the tagboard.

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//edited.

"Let it go? Hold on tight?"

hhellooos, I shall try not to have emo posts :D

so smileeeeyyyyyy ^^

kay, start with today after Infocomm.

running around the school with my dear friends && Weetiong.

looking for Xinyun is so fun && obviously tiring :X

I am damn freaking tired now.

so I will forget alot of things to post, paisehh.

so it's funnnnnn anyways.

btws, this is so cool [expressing yourself using lyrics]

some of this may be true, but some are jus total craps.

HOUJOO: Yeah love made you blind and now it's so hard to let him go.

ME: Love is about getting all the right moves.

HOUJOO: And now he makes you wanna look him in the eyes or let him go.

ME: And all the nice memories are on replay in my head.

HOUJOO: You dun wan to walk this earth if you've gotta do it solo.

ME: I lay my love on him and he walk away.

HOUJOO: You are sorry for breaking all the promises you weren't around to keep. But now it's too late to apologize.

ME: Baby, oh, i thought he will always be mine.

HOUJOO: But he wants freedom, just like a waving flag.

ME: I know he like me, i know he care. I love him but he changed.

HOUJOO: Where is the love? Your not his queen of hearts.

ME: Love is like a battlefield, and i jus gotta go my own way.

HOUJOO: You've gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love.

ME: Both hands tied behind my back with nothing.

HOUJOO: You've only got one love.

ME: The stars kneel down to kiss him, and i lie awake missing him.

HOUJOO: You can't help but wait till he falls for you.

ME: Baby, he knows that I miss him. I want to get to him, but I cannot.

HOUJOO: You want nobody nobody but him.

ME: Right now, I am lonely and he is not here to tell me that I am not alone, he is here with me.

HOUJOO: When he kiss you thru the phone, you catch a glimpse of heaven, you find your paradise.

ME: Everytime we touch, it seems naturally when he is with me baby.

HOUJOO: Since love made you blind, he made a fool of you, he made it look so perfect when it wasn't meant to be.

ME: I accidentally in love with him and it's so complicated

HOUJOO: The difference is he makes you walk a little better you talk a little better you dress a little better you're the closest thing to heaven o that's the difference yeah he makes the difference..

ME: I want him to be my bad boy, be my man. Be my weekend lover but dun be my friend.

&& with that I said goodnights cos I wanted to sleep liao.

some of the songs && lyrics are so nice.

quite a few of my favourite songs like:

- Baby by Justin Bieber.

- All The Right Moves by One Republic.

- Replay by IYAZ.

- Solo by IYAZ also.

- Bad Boy by Cascada.

- Naturally by Selena Gomez.

- Hard To Let U Go by Colby O'Donis.

- Blind by Jason Derulo.

&& of cos, my favourite of all.

- Vanilla Twilight by Owl City.

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"Thankyouverymuch for mutating."

I dunnoes what's wrong with me recently.

Why. Whats.

after the geog test, history test and all sorts of crap like art.

I should be relaxing, gaming, and doing all sorts of crazy stuff.

yet now, I on the com and stare at the msn.

I laughed in school.

&& a few seconds I laughed, I turned sad.

Boy, see what you have done to me.

well, you didn't actually do anything.

but it's your fault for being so nice before

that I like you.

everything have changed, I notice I am too late to realize this.

the problem is that everyday seems the same to me.

and that doesn't seems like anything or anyone in particular is changing.

I laughed, I cried, I emo-ed, I threw tantrums.

everyday activities, everything seems fine. everyone seems nice.

&& maybe I shall let bygones be bygones.

this ~~shall~~ will be the last post bout you,

&& hopefully, also, my last time posting bout sad stuff.

so I shall start it now.

today was a great day, yeahs.

somehow, the boys came up with Gollum (issit spelt like that?)

&& it is a special name given to Medeline.

art is like oh, gosh, ~~fcuk~~

(opps, shall try to learn to not be so vulgar also).

restart.

art is like oh, gosh, idiotic.

draw so many craps, print so many photos.

think I very rich issit.

Oh and the test after school, which I dun even know the name,

was a fail. I sure fail liao, somemore still pay money for it.

gosh, this is like the longest post I have ever posted.

so I was saying.

Jianhui has great taste. His primary school crush is a babe.

Leon's girlfriend (?) was a real chio girl.

the whole class is talking bout it now, nice one Leon! :D

Tuesday is slack day, real slack.

oh yeah, tomorrow going URA for some craps. Darn it.

I dun have the mood to go there.

well, no choice. There's a lot of things that is not up to us in life.

well, I would like to end this post like this.

if you ever found my blog, that would be sooner or later.

&& you care to even read my post && read until this post.

well, I would like to say that you are really nice.

&& that thankyouverymuch for changing into another person,

a stranger that I won't even recognize.

get on with it.

ignore me all you want, delete my contact from your phone && msn.

actions of a jerk, but well, you are.

get angry with me, like always.

and stop stabbing me again and again.

I will try to forget you, I will try to hate you more than I like you.

and one day, you might be the one regretting.

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